Sometimes I think I’m meant for pain, and she for me. She is my cruelest companion, and yet my most passionate form of expression. I can always depend on her for a good cry, an inspired project, even the longing for what matters most. I am nothing without her. This past year has been inexplicably… Continue reading The Loud Silence
It feels like forever since I’ve written, at least words that really mean something to me. I keep putting it off without having an actual good excuse to keep me from this space. I turned 32 last week. I never imagined being this old when I was younger. I don’t think many of us do.… Continue reading My Wish
Yesterday, I went into my attorney’s office to sign divorce papers. It was a complete out of body experience. It was as if it wasn’t me doing it. Someone else was because I couldn’t possibly be the one getting divorced. We are only two years in. My marriage isn’t over. My husband doesn’t have a girlfriend.… Continue reading On the Dotted Line
Nothing could have prepared me for yesterday. In all my 16 months of withdrawing, I had yet to meet another sufferer like myself. I have spoken to many online, sharing our stories and our journey through this nightmare, but never once had I met someone face to face. That’s not to say the offer has… Continue reading My First Encounter
When it comes to living with Red Skin Syndrome, going through withdrawal can be the most exhausting, unpredictable journey. You are not in control. You have taken the backseat and bravely allowed the withdrawal process to steer blindly towards that ever distant light you wish to reach. I am in month 14 of this process,… Continue reading It’s Not About the Good Days
I know your pain. I know exactly where it hurts, deep down as well as superficially. It’s everywhere, under and over, and in-between. There doesn’t seem to be an escape. We search for ways to explain this hurt, this unyielding, overpowering suffocation that is Topical Steroid Withdrawal. It’s usually to no avail. The dictionary just… Continue reading A Letter to the Suffering (TSW)
I haven’t posted my own writing in awhile. With all this hate circulating our country, I offer this note. We need to realize that we are all together in this — this world is made of different colors, religions, and love. Embrace those that are not like you. You can learn a lot. And those… Continue reading We Are All Related
I have been helping install a show on The Oasis of the Seas. Although I was not able to jump into the stage pit with the rest of the cast, I took my own leap these past two weeks. It has been a test on my health, but I am happy to say that I am feeling… Continue reading Leap of Faith
Before I leave for two weeks on a work trip (yup, cross your fingers for me!), I wanted to post my progress. From an oozing standpoint, it’s still been a struggle. However, I now have Sudocrem that I wrap up with for my arms and legs. I’ll put it on my face as well if… Continue reading TSW Days 55-66
“Some days there won’t be a song in your heart. Sing anyway.” -Emory Austin There will inevitably be bad days. There will be days you just want to give up. Don’t. Happiness is around the corner. Be brave and finish out your day. Tomorrow may hold your new song. Love, B. R. Wren
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